Worn

Are you worn? About a month ago, for the first time I heard the song "Worn" by Tenth Avenue North on my local Christian radio station. This station always mentions how God uses their station to "play the right song at the right time" and let me tell you this song was exactly what I needed to hear when I needed it the most. My friend Luis was recently told that his cancer has returned in both of his lungs. Luis's attitude and view on his second trial is nothing short of extraordinary and he has encouraged me so much in my faith over the past month and a half. Over Spring Break he received his first round of an experimental antibodies treatment and I was able to be by his side during the extremely painful infusions. Luis told me that "the LORD's timing is always perfect" because on the week that he started his treatment, I was able to be with him because I did not have school. That was such a "God thing" and I am so blessed to have had that week off of school so that I could support my dear friend. Over the past month and a half, my world has been turned upside down by the news of Luis's relapse and as a result I often feel worn. As I was driving home that one night and Tenth Avenue North's beautiful song came on the radio, I was amazed by the way this song portrayed everything that I was feeling and I was blown away its honesty. The troubles in the world and trials that the LORD so perfectly places in our lives can often be exhausting. These beautiful trials can cause us try to control things that are completely out of our control, resulting in exhaustion. In the midst of chaos we often chose to doubt or worry about the future when we should be doing the exact opposite. The LORD loves it when his children come to him with burdened hearts and chose to find peace in his presence. The truth is that we have nothing to worry about because we are in the most wonderful hands possible. The LORD cares for each and every one of his children and even though at times it is easy for us to wonder why he would plant trials in our lives, we need to remember the beauty that each trial entails. It is easy for us to view trials as "bad things" but in reality the are the best things because they remind us of our brokenness and we learn to embrace how broken we truly are. The only one who can fix our broken and tired hearts is the the LORD himself and all we have to do is simply ask him to fix us. He is the Great Healer and there is nothing too worn or too broken for him to fix. This damaged world and the trials that we have to face as Christians is exhausting, but it is so beautiful and such a privilege to be exhausted. Because in moments of exhaustion we are reminded how much we need our Savior.

I'm tired 

I'm worn 

My heart is heavy

From the work it takes to keep on breathing

I've made mistakes 

I've let my hope fail

My soul feels crushed

By the weight of this world

And I know that you can give me rest

So I cry out with all that I have left

Let me see redemption win

Let me know the struggle ends

That you can mend a heart that's frail and torn

I want to know a song can rise

From the ashes of a broken life

And all that's dead inside can be reborn

Cause I'm worn

I know I need 

To lift my eyes up

But I'm too week

Life just won't let up

And I know that You can give me rest

So I cry out with all that I have left

Let me see redemption win

Let me know the struggle ends

That you can mend a heart that's frail and torn

I want to know a song can rise

From the ashes of a broken life

And all that's dead inside can be reborn

Cause I'm worn

And my prayers are wearing thin

I'm worn even before the day begins

I'm worn I've lost my will to fight

I'm worn so heaven so come and fluid my eyes

Let me see redemption win

Let me know the struggle ends

That you can mend a heart that's frail and torn

I want to know a song can rise

From the ashes of a broken life

And all that's dead inside can be reborn

Yes all that's dead inside will be reborn

Though I'm worn 

Yeah I'm worn

Please keep Luis in you prayers over the next couple of months as he continues to receive treatment. His scans came back and showed that his cancer has spread 25%. He has stopped the research treatment and he switched to chemo that he started this week. I am so proud of him and the way that he is handling everything but please continue to pray for his strength and courage to face his second battle. Pray that the LORD will grant us patience as we wait upon his healing.